Getting Anxious

Well I'm getting so very anxious with all of the things going on in my life.I am flying to Florida in March to be sentenced.As I said before I have been down a long road, and a year ago in my addiction I got into legal trouble.Because I have been to prison within so many years I was facing 15 years.My completion of rehab has really helped me in many ways, legal as well.My attorney said I will be getting probation,and the judge has allowed me to start my life over completely in Tennessee.I am very nervous just because it seems like my natural reacting to things, but I know that with the Lord beside me I am going to be just fine.I truly know that I will be okay, but I get so anxious about court...I will be so happy as soon as I can move forward. This has been a long and slow process,but I am a strong woman, and I have a loving family and support system behind me.Well it's Saturday night and I'm going to get ready for bed. God bless everyone...

A letter from my Husband!!

Well today has been a great day, and I am just so happy.My husband is in prison, and will be until 2011. I finally got a letter from him since my move to Tennessee. It's been weeks, and I just love being able to have some sort of contact with him. I made homemade french fries for dinner, and Jen made Bratwurst. A nice fun dinner for a friday night.I hope everyone has a great weekend...

How exciting!!!

Well I just got home from taking my tabe test, and I scored 598 on my Reading, a 578 on my Language, and a 518 on my math. You only need to score a 550 on each test to get your GED... I can't believe I am that smart considering I have an 8th grade education. MY teacher said I start school monday,and will attend 4 days a week. It shouldn't be long and I'll be taking my pre-test. YEAH...God is sooooo good...

A brand new day...

Well I have been up since 5:40 this morning and I am so nervous about taking these tests for the start of my GED school. I hope that all goes well, but I know that I will succeed so long as I keep the Lord by my side. I miss my kids so much this morning, and it hurts, but I know in do time we will be a family again. Have a good day

It's Snowing

Well today is a beautiful day, and it's snowing outside. I love Tennessee so much although I am not used to the cold weather. I am enrolling in GED school, and I was supposed to start my school today, but it was canceled because of the snow. I am very excited to begin growing in so many ways. I've also decided to quit smoking on the 1st of the month.God is blessing me in so many ways, and I am beginning to see it more each day.Well I must go now God bless

Living a new freedom

Today is 1/26/09 it's a beautiful day and I start my womens group, and I am very excited to begin a new journey in life through christ. Right now I'm sitting next to my nephew and it just amazes me how loving and innocent children are. I see myself as a child of God, an infant. I am beginning this journey and I am going to learn and grow like a child grows. I hope that today is a blessed day for all. God bless

Where I came from

Today is a new day and I am sober and free, and that says a lot for me. A year ago I was so bad off into drugs, and alcohol. I've been to prison, and I lost one marriage to my wreckless past ways. I am a 28 year old woman, and I have two children whom are in the custody of their father at this point in their lives. I have faith now today and I believe that God has a plan for me. I am traveling down a long road and it isn't gonna be easy all of the time!!! I do however know that everything in life happens for a reason, and I am where I am supposed to be. I just graduated from rehab and moved to Tennessee to live with my sister and brother in law and nephew.Today is a new day and tomorrow is a space for me to grow.As I sit here writing there is apart of me so sad and lonely, but there is a stronger part of me that knows I will one day be reunited with my children, and current husband... I'd have to say that if it wasn't for the faith of my family and their prayers, well I'd probably never made it today. I suffer from Bipolar and PTSD,and Borderline Personality Disorder.I now know that taking my medication and attending meeting regularly keep my mind and spirit in a healthy way. No life isn't perfect, and I battle memories that drive me up the wall, but I am sober today!!!