"Have faith in God," Jesus answered. - Mark 11:22

It doesn't matter what you"re going through, or how big your opponents are. Keep an attitude of faith. Stay calm. Stay in a positive frame of mind. And don't try to do it all your way. Let God do it his way. If you simply obey his commands, he will change things in your favor. The Bible says, ' Don't get weary and faint in your mind " ( see Hebrews 12:3 ). Remember, stand strong. When negative thoughts come, reject them and replace them with God's thoughts. When you're in an attitude of faith, your opening the door for God to work in your situation. You may not see anything happening in your natural eyes, but in the unseen realm, in the spiritual world, God is at work. And if you'll do your part and keep believing, at the right time, God will bring you out with the VICTORY...

I read this when I got up this morning, and it was like the Lord was talking to me, and I am going to do as it says and I will keep pushing forward and do my best to do God's will as I'm told. I wish everyone a blessed day...

How do I act?

Do I push on, and act like I'm okay, or do I allow my feelings to release. I feel so much hurt, and anger inside me and I want to just let it out. I can't go through every day and put on a smile like I'm fine when inside all I feel is pain, and suffering. I laugh so much to make the pain gone, and for those moments I'm laughing I feel free. I think that's why I laugh so much during the day, so I won't ball up in a dark corner and just cry. I need help with my emotions because I feel like I'm going to break soon, and I lose everything I've worked so hard for. Well actually not to be negative, but I feel that it got me no where in some ways because look I still got a 15 year sentence, and if I don't get this Clemency I go to prison and won't get out for 15 years yes, no gain time no credit time served, 15 years. I will have lost my life of my children for real then. Yes, I know I sound negative, but I am hurting, and I don't know what to do. I need a friend, and I feel like I have no one...

I don't know what to do right now??????

I am not doing so well right now. I am just feeling lost, depressed, and I feel that suicidal thought's just stay in my head. I know not to fall into them, but I am really hurting, and really upset right now. I feel so alone, and I just want my kids, and my husband, and I want my life back. I feel like I grow a few steps in my faith, and then the devil just attacks me to a point that I can't even pick up my Bible. Please if there is anyone who knows me and what I am going through please will you call me. my number is 615-753-7426. I really need support and love and God. I need a friend, and feel like I don't have a soul in this world to talk to about things, and it's weighing down hard on me. Please pray for me...

I just want to say thank you.

Well hello everyone, I had a few days of being unable to log on so I guess the other morning when I was half asleep getting ready for work I went on and deleted the video of my kids. I am uploading it right now, and I will be posting it. I am just going on with life as if nothing has changed. I have to stay in prayer cause there is a big part of me that wants to just be a big baby, and cry for my momma, and cuddle my babies, and just eat junk food and feel sorry for myself. My kids are doing really good, and both has a great week so far. I hope you all enjoy your week...I also just want to thank everyone for their support with everything that I am going through, and facing. Hey the good Lord has a plan, or I wouldn't be WHERE I AM TODAY...

I said I'd show you a video...

Morning to everyone, and I hope that you all had a great, and relaxing weekend. I am up early and ready to have a great day today. I uploaded some of my videos to youtube. Just go there and look for jamie nalley and you'll see. Well this weekend was long and I am just ready to get started on the rest of my life. I don't know where I am going, but I know WHERE I AM TODAY, and I am okay with that because I have a very loving and supportive family, and I just know that God has great plans for me, and I am going to be a walking testimony for many people. I hope this week goes well for all of you, and your families...GOD BLESS...

I can see...

I got up this morning and felt such a sadness in my heart, and usually I would just allow it to destroy me. I decided to read my Bible, and ask God what all of this is for. I have felt it in my heart that I no longer need to worry, and that if I am meant to serve these 15 years then God sees something in me that I don't. If I keep myself close to the Lord how can I go wrong. Yes I may not like what will happen at times, but if I follow the word and do as it says then I will be okay in spirit. So I can sit here this morning and say that if at worst I go to prison like I am sentenced to, then I will do as I'm meant to do. I can feel the Lord in me, and I can feel a great relief on my heart. WOW the Lord is AMAZING!!!!!! I just want to say that my life is a blessing and all that is to come is a blessing.

I should have never said anything...

A few days ago I made a comment about my sister and what she's going through but it caused nothing but trouble for me, and that's not why I did it. I made the comment because I see her going down the same path as I did, and I don't want to see her lose everything like I did. I never meant to hurt her, or cause people to think badly of her. I only wished for people to pray for her, and my family in which it badly affecting. I love my sister very much, and only want for her to have her life back, and not see it go where mine has went cause as you all can see I was just sentenced to prison for 15 years. Whether or not it's God's plan for me to be an inspiration in prison, or why this is all to happen it's not what I want and I can already see the damage it's gonna do to my kids in order for me to be something to others. I recently found God and he has done miraculous things in my life, and has made me see through alot I never could have seen before. I also feel that I have very much farther to go, and I am struggling with trusting him because I, me yes me am being selfish... I don't want to hurt my kids anymore than I already have in their little lives. I will give up my life and be an inspiration in prison if it's meant to be, but I will always have a resentment for the fact I ruined my children's life, and I'm scared I will end up where I don't want to end. I am going to spend some time in prayer today and truly search myself asking God for understanding. But I just want to say to my sister that I am sorry. I love her so much, and she is a great person, better than I could have ever been. I only want to see her succeed.

Tonight took my mind off of things a bit...

Well tonight me and Jen went to the mall to get pedicures, and on the way we saw a fair. So we went back to the house and got Jared, and Andon then we went to the fair. It was so fun riding the rides. Me, and Jen rode this crazy ride twice, and after the second time I was feeling like I was gonna get sick. I've been to many theme parks, but never went on a ride like that before. WOW... I really enjoyed my night with everyone, and wished my kids could have been there. They will be up here in 4 weeks, and we're going to have the time of our lives. I had a bit of a rough spot today with my faith, and trusting in the Lord. I know it's a sin to worry, and I really am trying to give everything to him, and trust that it will all work out the way he wants it to. I just have to accept that it's his will, and not always what I want. Anyhow my night has ended very well, and I am going to bed now.... God Bless you all.

God can get me through this..

Well as you all know I was sentenced to 15 years in Florida State Prison this week. I am to turn myself in to the Citrus County Jail on November 20th 2009. I just know that this is all for a reason, because of the changes I have made in my life the past two years. I am a great believer in my faith, and I can feel the devil trying to pull me down. I ask that all of you that read my blog please pray for my strength to keep pressing forward. I just know that this has all happened for a great reason in God's plan for me, and my family. I won't lie, I am scared, and I feel really sick, but I am trying to give that to the Lord. God Bless, and have a great day.

Coping with reality...

Well I got home lastnight and was able to relax and allow the reality of things to hit me. It sure did, but I am afraid that it hasn't hit all the way yet. I am so scared of what is to come, and I just want to keep fighting and lastnight I felt myself beginning to just fall. I can feel the pain that this is causing everyone. Please go to the blog ( A day in the life ) in my favorite blogs. That is my mom's blog and I can just feel her pain. I am so afraid of what this will do to my children if I'm meant to serve these 15 years. It's Gods will and I will accept that, but I just wish for it to be a blessing to the ones I love and not a heart breaker. Today Jen and Andon kept my mind really busy and we had a great day at the pool and I we went out to lunch as well. I go back to work tomorrow, and I am ready to get my mind busy on work and not dwelling on this I'm going through. I will have a relaxing weekend and come Tuesday I will begin with Jen, and Jared on getting things together for the Florida State Legislature for my appeals. I pray that oneday I will be a walking testimony to others, and to bring joy into peoples hearts.

What can I say???

Well I had a great viist with the kids and I will be posting video of it in a few days.I went to court today and was sentenced to 15 years prison. The judge is giving me until November 2oth to file a Clemensy with the State of Florida. I didn't see this coming at all. I'm kinda tired right now and I am still in Florida,but I will be blogging in the next few days. I just need to rest and clear my head right now. Please everyone pray for me PLEASE...There is a huge part of me that knows it will all be okay, yet I am so afraid for my children. I am so scared, and I want to just cry, but something won't let me fall into that depression and I believe it's GOD.

It's not what I wished it was...

Well what can I say? I came down for court and I'm staying at my mom's house. It is very sad to say this, but I wish I had never come here. My little sister is so deep into her addiction that I don't even know her. My mom sat up until midnight cleaning and then she got up at 4:oo am this morning and went to work. What do I do? I'm being supportive, and helped clean the house up and tended to the kids while my sister laid up sick. I can only see it this way. I must be there for them, but at a distance because I cannot allow there life to affect mine. I want so badly to make they're life better, but I am fighting for my own at this point and must walk away from them. I was so excited to come here, and now that I'm here I only wish to leave and not come back. I love my family so much, but I am finally at a point in my life that I love my life even more and if this is what it takes then this is what I'll do.I am going to see my kids later and I will blog about it tonight.

Found another picture...

Well I'm just going through some pictures at my moms house, and I found this that me and the kids had done last year. I amo so excited to see my kids. I am meeting there father near there house around 5:00 pm. I can't wait. I'm just anxious...

Made it to Florida

Well it was an okay flight down here. I was able to go and speak to my husband at my father in laws house lastnight. It was so nice to hear his voice, and today my mom had to work so I'm gonna help around the house. I will be going to see my kids tonight, and I'm gonna take them out to dinner. I went and got a picture from my house of my husband and I had my brother scan it on to my moms computer so now we'll see if I can post it. Have a great day...

Went and got a hair cut...

Today was a really nice day, and I am very happy I listened to Jen and got my hair cut. I had a really good week and I am just so happy and excited to see my family in Florida. I am very anxious about my court date, but I have faith that whatever comes of it, it is God's will. I wish everyone a Blessed weekend...

Graduation was Fun !!!!!!!!

Well my Graduation was such a fun night. I can honestly say that it felt so good do go and be a part of that. Afterwards we all went and had pizza, and came home and relaxed until we fell asleep. I also had a great night lastnight with Jen, Jared, and Andon. We all went out to eat and then me and Jen went to the mall to get a pedicure, and I'm going to get a hair cut. So we were too late lastnight so we are going to go get my hair cut before Jen goes to work. Here are a few pictures of my Graduation.

My Graduation is Tomorrow...

Yes I know I am 28 years old and should have graduated High School 10 years ago, but like you all know my past was chaos and very destructive, and I was left with no time for school. The last grade I completed was the 8th grade, and it just so happened that I was able to taking a nursing class and get my CNA. I went to the certified nursing assistant class and graduated, and was so excited to get my state license. Little did I know that my juvenile charges that put me away would also take away my right to be a CNA. I was very upset that my past would follow me as an adult, but the reality of it is, it did!!! So I gave up on education and wanted to be a wife and mother. I did that and never followed my desire to get an education. Now since I am a mother, and a wife I had the desire to become independent with a little, or maybe alot of encouragement from Jen, and Jared. I signed up for GED school two months ago, and took my tests two weeks into my schooling. I passed my GED with flying colors yep, yep and tomorrow is my Graduation. Hey you only graduate from High School once in your life so why not be proud of myself even if it is 10 years later. So I am very excited about tomorrow night. Hey it's a nice ending to my day to be reminded of that. I hope you all have a blessed night.

Emotional...

Well today has just been rough on me. I miss my husband so bad, and I got such a sweet and sad letter from him in the mail this afternoon. My heart feels broken, my soul is lost it seems, and I try to keep turning to the Lord for guidance. I have so much going on in my life right now, and I feel myself changing for the better, but I fear changing because will I still be the woman my husband fell in love with? I know our hearts remain in the same place, or better yet our love grows stronger as this time passes. Life passes us by so fast and before we know it, it's passed us by. An old friend of mine had a relative pass away, and it just makes me think. What if I never see my husband, my children, my family again? Anything can happen and when it's your time to go, and the good Lord brings you home then there is no stopping it. I lived a wild life as a teenager and went through many hard things that have left a dent in my heart. I find that the Lord is removing it slowly, and I'm just point blank afraid of change. I could go on all day long about my fears, but there is no need. I am where I am today because this is where I am meant to be, and I must accept this. My life is a blessing and I will not fall into my emotions because I'm having a rough day. Well I feel better that I got to vent about that.

I'm Getting Anxious...

Well it's Tuesday and I'm just home from work, and I am so excited to go to Florida. My nerves are much more settled about court because I've given it to God. I do still try to take my own will back, but I've become more aware of it. I can't wait to see my babies and take them out to dinner. I'm not so keen on going back to Citrus County but that's where my family is. I will be taking pictures when I go down so you'll get to see some of my trip.

I love my sister...

Today I felt something weighing on my heart that I should do something special for Jen. She is always thinking of me and doing for me. So I asked Jared if he'd take me to Life Way Christian Store in town. Jen collects these little Willow Tree statues, and I found one with two sisters side by side. Jen is so loving, and giving and it just makes me feel good inside that I could do that for her. I just know she's gonna love it. I got some really good news about my son today as well. My son is in the first grade, and the school sent home a letter to his father saying that they would like permission to put Jordan in gifted classes. They say he far past the average kid, and he's reading at a fourth grade level already. I am so proud of my children, and just want to thank the Lord for blessing me with the gift of being their mother. God Bless...

They've done it again...

Well as you all see I posted this morning, just after that I went back to bed. I was awakened by Jennifer, Jared, and Andon all singing Happy Mother's Day to me, then they piled on my bed and gave me such amazing gifts. I never seen it coming at all, and it just felt so great on my heart that they would do such a thing. Jen has these little" Willow Tree" nic naks she has been collecting and they are beautiful. They got me an angel of hope and a new picture frame with a beautiful picture of my kids and me, and a card full of pictures of me, and my kids when they were little. My heart is just so touched... Then right after that my babies called me, and wished me a Happy Mother's Day... I must say that I am BLESSED...

A Blessing

Well instead of sitting here, and feeling bad for myself that my children are not with me. I'm going to say that I wish my mom the best Mother's Day ever, and she deserves more than just that. My mom is that woman who always went without to make sure we had everything. Even when we got into high school and had to have the name brand cloths I can remember my mom taking ever dime she had to get us each a cool outfit as we described. This is a woman who was always beside me, I can remember trying to kill myself and waking up out of a coma with mom and a suitcase in hand. This is a woman who took on raising her own sisters and it seems like their children too. Always wearing the weight of others on her heart not paying any attention to her own needs. I pray that GOD will bless my mom today cause if anyone deserves it. Well it would be her. Thank you mom and Happy Mother's Day. I LOVE YOU...

Tomorrow is Mother's Day

Well I may not get the Mother's Day with my kids that I want, but I will be flying down to Florida on the 17th of this month and we're gonna celebrate then by going to dinner and my babies made me cards. I know in time I will eventually be spending Mother's Day with my children in my own home. I would like to wish all of you mother's a wonderful Mother's Day!!!!!!

Just For Laughs...

Classification: UNCLASSIFIED

Your daily laugh!




A 6 year old and a 4 year old are upstairs in their bedroom.

'You know what?' says the 6 year old. 'I think it's about time we
started cussing.

The 4 year old nods his head in approval.

The 6 year old continues, 'When we go downstairs for breakfast, I'm
gonna say something with hell and you say something with ass.'

The 4 year old agrees with enthusiasm.

When the mother walks into the kitchen and asks the 6 year old what he
wants for breakfast, he replies, 'Aw, hell, Mom, I guess I'll have some
Cheerios.'

'WHACK! He flies out of his chair, tumbles across the kitchen floor,
gets up, and runs upstairs crying his eyes out, with his mother in hot
pursuit, slapping his rear with every step. His mom locks him in his
room and shouts, 'You can stay there until I let you out!'

She then comes back downstairs, looks at the 4 year old and asks with a
stern voice, 'And what do YOU want for breakfast, young man?'

'I don't know, 'he blubbers, 'but you can bet your fat ass it won't be
Cheerios!

On A Positive Note...

I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will get better tomorrow.

I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled christmas tree lights.

I've learned the regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life.

I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.

I've learned that making a "living" is not the same as making a " life".

I've learned that if you pursue happiness, it will elude you. But if you focus on your family, your friends, the needs of others, your work and doing the best you can, happiness will find you.

I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.

I've learned that even when I have pains,I don't have to be one.

I've learned that everyday you should reach out and touch someone. People love that human touch, holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.

I've learned that I still have a lot to learn.

I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

I've also learned that you should pass this along to someone you care about. I just did. Sometimes you need a little something to make you smile.

God Bless...

You can't seek happiness

I'm learning that the more I seek happiness the worse I feel. I've found that through my actions and reactions with or around other people can give me a sense happiness. That every moment I think of my children, or my husband my heart fills with happiness. If I just live and allow it to find me, then happy is what I'll be. I've lived in such a world of my own that I felt I could never find happiness when all along it was right in front of me as I was pushing it away. Today I am happy, and I will keep praying for happiness to remain in me...

My emotions take over...

I don't know what it is, but my heart is so sad that it's making me literally sick. My mom always said that around my monthly I get a little crazy and emotional.It's almost that time so I don't know if that may be the cause. Anyhow I got a beautiful Mother's Day card from my husband today with a picture in in as well. I am so sad inside and I don't know what to do. I miss my family so much but I have to work on me before I can be any good to them. I think I'm getting depressed from not having any friends, or social life at all. I don't know what to do I just want these emotions to stop cause I feel like it is gonna break me down, and I don't want to fall into any type of depression.

It was said "I'm a rising Star"

Well as you all know I finally got a job a month ago. I've really only had one other job besides this one. I work in the Production Department and Friday was one of the most exciting days for me. My Boss sent out a message to the Company about my progress,calling me a rising star, and I've never had such a thing happen to me. I know that I work really hard, but I never seen that coming. It may sound crazy to others but having the responsibility as I have now is a blessing to me and I feel that it's just another step in my growing process. Life is amazing and I love life today, and says alot for me because all my life all I ever wanted was to die. Since I was 15 years old I've tried to commit suicide over 10 times and I felt that there was no purpose in life more me. Even after the birth of my children I felt I was never good enough to be their mother.I've lived my life in such a depression that being angry, and lonely was no big deal as far as I could see because it was what I called normal.I can't just forget about the past because I have scars on my wrists, and throat that oneday I'll have to explain to my children. I believe that I am to be a walking testimony in the future. It does get better, and life is worth living for, and I wouldn't quit fighting for my life for nothing in this world. I have two beautiful children, a loving husband, and an amazing family that never gave up on me, even when I gave up on myself, and I just want to thank the Lord for giving me life...

Treated Jen & Andon

Well Thursday was an enjoyable night.Jen is always doing for me so I asked Jen if she'd like to go eat somewhere. Jared was out of town and the house seemed not right without him home. So we went to Nashville and ate at Carrabas and then went to the Green Hills Mall. We had fun and got to spend good quality time we each other. Here is a picture we took before we left...

It' Friday...

Morning to everyone, and I'm wishing you all a blessed day. Things are going rather well for me. I just miss my kids, and can't wait to fly down to Florida to see them. Have a great weekend...